Thursday, April 19, 2012

April A to Z Challenge: Q

Q = Quiet

I'm finding that having a dose of quiet time each day. . .or whenever I can manage to find it!. . . has been both very therapuetic and very scary for me.  Having pure peace and quiet even if for a short time is a foreign concept to me.  I'm always on the go.  Always having something else to work on or try to get checked off the to-do list.  Therefore, when I find myself with some quiet time, I don't fully know what to do with it.  Also, it scares me.  When its quiet, my brain has an opportunity to slow down and think about all of those things that often times get pushed to the back.  You know, those things that I push away because I don't "have time" to deal with it at that moment.  In reality, I just don't want to think about it.  Maybe it hurts too bad.  Maybe it makes me angry.  Maybe it's embarassing.  Whatever it is, I try to avoid having to deal with it.  Having quiet makes it come to the front.  It forces me to deal with it.  That's a scary thing.  But, it's necessary in order for me to process the things that I have going on right now.  It's necessary in order to start/continue the healing process. 

So, how do you find quiet?  What do you do with it? 

2 comments:

  1. Good for you, though, taking the time and facing that fear!

    I force quiet time on myself every day, even though it's scary for me, too. There are a lot of thoughts that I'm trying to work through in my life and, even though it hurts, that quiet time makes it better.

    Jessica
    A to Z Blogger & SF/Fantasy Writer @ Visions of Other Worlds

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  2. I think we all need some quiet time. I don't like prolonged quiet, though. Enough to refuel and then I need to hear some human voices. I need to know there is life around me as much as I need that quiet, sometimes more so. I think it depends on how busy my life is then.

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