Monday, April 2, 2012

April A to Z Challenge: B

B = Ball Busting Busy (Do I get extra points for multiple 'B's?)

As a single mom, I'm Ball Busting Busy all the freakin' time.  I'm often overwhelmed by the amount of stuff that I have on my to-do list at all times.  With the need to compartmentalize almost every aspect of my life in order to get everything accomplished, I've found that I actually start to feel very lost whenever I have a free moment where I don't have what feels like a million things waiting for me to get done.  Being busy is just a part of my life.  Love it or Hate it, it seems like it is a constant state of being for me.  At least for the foreseeable future.

For example, it is now the 2nd day of April.  For most people, that would be inspiring. . .the second day of a new month.  For me, it's terrifying.  For one, I haven't paid my monthly bills yet.  I HATE sitting down to pay bills.  Not only is it a task which I find utterly boring and far too adminstrative, but it truly sucks to see a large-ish sum of money in my bank account quickly dwindle down to mere dollars (and we're not talking double digit dollars here!) once the bills are paid.  It's stressful.  It's painful.  It makes me cry 11 months out of 12 (with the one exception being the month after I've received my tax return).  In addition, I'm also always thinking of the homework assignments that I have due for the month.  Then, there's the different appointments that either Ty or I have in the month.  How many days I need to "re-arrange" things at work to accomodate appointments or other conflicts that I have coming up.  Of course, there's the list of neverending home improvement or DIY decorating projects that I seem to always be in the middle of.  Rarely ever "just starting" and never ever ever "finishing up". . .always "in the middle".  For once, I'd love to get finishing some of them up.  On top of all of that, I've got SO much work to get done this month in preparation for graduation in the beginning of May.  I have family coming in town and am planning on having a BBQ over at my house for friends and family afterwards.  Of course, this is adding to my neverending to-do list and causing me great anxiety and stress. 


  1. As freelancer who works from home, I know exactly what you mean. If I schedule time off, I often sit here completely lost and eventually find something productive to do. I just can't take time off. I'm not good at it ;)

  2. Hats off to you. I can't imagine managing things on my own! I hope you find strength to persevere and that people come your way to encourage and help you in your quest to keep busting a move!