April A to Z Challenge: J

J = Joy

Being a single mother brings alot of challenges.  There's no question there.  While I wouldn't wish for anyone to find themselves a single parent unless it is specifically what they want, there is also a lot of joy in being in this situation, you just have to find it.  For one, I'm alot stronger than I ever imagined I could be.  I find joy in this.  I have found joy in being able to accomplish tasks that I might have otherwise asked Ty's father to complete for me.  There is also a lot of joy in the one on one time that I get to spend with my son.  He has these moments of pure sweetness that I just adore and he typically only brings them out with me.  When he's around his dad, he acts all macho and "manly" but with me, he sometimes lets that act slip and shows mommy what a softie he is on the inside.  I've also found joy in the fact that I can run everything in my household again.  If I don't want to do laundry. . .I don't.  If I don't want to pick up after myself. . .I don't.  If I want to eat oreos for dinner. . . I do.